After all the events of the last few weeks, it now feels like months ago when I was listening to the horrific events that unfolded at the Pulse nightclub in Orlando, not able to get the images out of my mind.
Especially one young man’s description of his ordeal, hiding in a bathroom stall with 17 [seventeen!!] other people, all wounded, all slowly bleeding to death as they waited over two and a half hours for help [two and a half hours!]. The shooter came around and shot into the stall, but remarkably, never entered it.
The young man said he couldn’t get the smell of the blood out of his mind. He shot video from inside the stall and sent to friends so that they would know that they were all alive and give some clues to any potential rescuers. Why did they have to wait almost THREE HOURS for help? Only five made it out alive. Just heart-rending. Horrible. Horrible.
In my previous post I talked about going to the library when I was a kid to get good LPs and then drawing from the photos on them.
One of my favorite musicians when I was a teenager was Miles Davis. When I was looking for a photo to draw him I remember it was a bit difficult to get a good enough photo at that time without a horn in his mouth. I did some drawings of him playing, but I also wanted one without a horn in his mouth and finally found a very early photo of him.
Miles is young in the picture, it’s off of one of his earliest albums and I was very young when I drew this pencil sketch. It was the summer before I entered ninth grade: I was 15.
The original sketch is quite small: only a couple of inches across.
When I was a kid, my one great refuge was the public library. In those days it had two floors, the first floor was for kids, the second for adults.
I tried desperately to get check-out rights to the adult section when I was in elementary school, but to no avail: the librarians reneged on every agreement [like reading all the books on a given topic in the young adults section and I’d get access, which I did, but still no access …].
This taught me very early on one very important non-intended consequence: that for a lot of adults, including, and especially those in power, their word meant nothing and that they were not to be trusted.
Finally I turned 12 and could get a full library card. One thing I had not anticipated is that the adult section had a great music section containing Classical LPS, and even more difficult to get otherwise in my neighborhood, a full range of jazz LPs: all of Miles Davis, even Ornette Coleman. I was in heaven and pretty much checking out LPs at my max quota on an ongoing basis.
One of the things a lot of these LPs had were photos of the musicians, composers, and conductors on their back covers and sleeve inserts. So I started drawing from these LPs. My primary tools were a black pencil, a pink pearl eraser, and paper, sometimes I used colored crayola crayon. From about 5th grade to 7th grade I developed a certain naturalistic approach to drawing that culminated in the drawing style you see here in an example from the summer before I entered 8th grade. I was 14.
I’ll post a couple of drawings from the next summer in my next post. Without the intrusion of school, summers allowed me much more time to draw, so most of my drawing during these years was done during the summer. Ah, the life-long battle to obtain time and space to create my own work. I do not remember a time or age I did not feel that all else was an imposition and a hindrance to what I felt I was supposed to be doing.
Q: Frank Stella once said that when he started he just wanted to make things, it was only later that he realized he was making something people called art.
ReeL: Yea, right. Wonder what he thought Joseph Stella was doing.
For myself, I was never interested in making things. I wasn’t interested as a kid, in school or anytime after. I was always intrigued by our ability to read a flat surface, to construct meanings from what was on it, to see a flat surface in a very non-thing-like way.
Materialists and highly materialistic cultures are enthralled by things and making things. The world is too full of things already.
A painting’s status as an object is NOT the most important aspect of a painting –at least a painting that is any good, that is. The most important aspect of a painting is whether it has significant meaning. The most important aspects of painting are quite independent of its status as an object, and in many cases are involved with how significantly it is non-object-like.
I did this painting, titled Beginning New Time, right after meeting Rhonda Hill, my wonderful wife. We met in a gallery one afternoon, talked for a bit, then went our ways after arranging to meet later early that evening at a friend’s bar for a light dinner.
Neither of us can remember what was said exactly in that first conversation, but we were both intrigued. Proof, once again, that it is the feeling and character that matters, not the exact words. It was the beginning of the most remarkable relationship of my life; a relationship that has more than fulfilled all the promise of those first magic moments.